my personal story

Like I mentioned my name is Sayruh. Ive experienced many things in life. When I was a child, I was extremely shy and so so sensitive to everything and just use to sit back and watch and feel everything. I always had questions about everything running through my mind. A lot of things didn't make sense to me. I could pick up very well on other people emotional states. I had a deep inner knowing when someone was telling the truth or what they might be about to do next or how they really felt about shit.even though they pretended other wise. i guess this led to a good and bad thing, because I hated negativity, I hated to see anger or hurt in other people so I guess I learned how to use this to contort myself if to the best people please in the world to keep the pease and to keep my self safe in certain situations. Shit was exhausting and depressing I wasnt being myself and to afraid to be at that because all all life were conditioning into thinking we have to be like everyone else, we must be kind obey and just do what our parents teachers and society tells us. By like the age of 12 I felt so damn lost and confused I was just going along with what was going on around me. But ability to say no put me in some terrible situations further on in life. From betrayal, getting used stolen from taken advantage of etc. In my late teens I felt lost just looking for anything to fill the void ended up pregnant with my first son, by my early twenties had my other son and daughter. None of the relationships worked constant fighting betrayal getting cheated on. So I left with the kids and decided to do it on my own. Years later met a dude at work started dating him. Oh my God worse mistake ever dude was psycho and the physical and  mental abuse was crazy. That went on for three years. Finally got the courage to get back to myself was single for three years working getting back in school happy single spending hella time with my kids. And randomly started talking to a guy I knew from school. This is where shit really hits the fan. He was cool felt oddly familiar and I was comfortable around this dude like I've never been around any one before. Things were amazing for a couple months. Then all of a sudden he kinda went cold and hauled ass. The way I felt about it didn't make sense id never been in that much pain about a break up especially not after someone I've only been dealing with for three months. My mind started going crazy this then flipped into a spiritual awakening a brutal dark night of the soul and then coax came crashing down in my life. I started loosing everything people money my house I lived in for 10 years. I had no idea what the fuck was really happening. This sent me on a wild goose chase from hell. I started getting gangstalked by false psychics healers spiritual coaches weird ass amount of dudes and girls gangstalking and flooding into my inbox it was fucking weird. I figured out this is the false light trying to keep you running in loops so you can't complete your spiritual awakening. And that was just the tip of the ice burg on they come in other was too like work place sabotage. Dews direct energy weapons from the targeting program if your not in alignment they will torture the f*** out of you. It was the scariest shit I have ever went through. You can't tell anyone any of this shit they aren't going to believe you and are going to call you crazy. Ai and the internet is meant to keep you suffering looping in confused. Only way I started coming out of it was by being forced inward cause that was my last possible option. Then I started figuring shit out. Our inner world creates our outter reality. I started learning and aligning with the laws of the universe. And learning how reality, the mind etc actually work. Anyone going through all this my heart goes out to then you loose everything and what you don't loose your so excited to you have to just let go at a certain point. Unfortunately that's the damn key that's when you start aligning with who you really are. And when you come out of this your not gonna fear shit or give a shit about what people think of you it changes you it's meant to